My go to excuse. This is my favorite line, that I use way too frequently. After dealing with the stresses of the child welfare system all day, and wondering what I could’ve done better or if I’ll ever actually help a family come back together, I just want to come home and sit. That’s right, I just want to sit on my couch and not move. I am emotionally, physically, and mentally exhausted, and some mindless television and wine sounds like heaven. Then I remember that I go to school full-time, and the side project I’ve been brainstorming, and all the crafting I want to do, and I just, well, get even more tired. So I sit. And I eat. And I binge for a couple hours on Netflix. Then I go to sleep telling myself I’ll do better tomorrow, but tomorrow comes and the cycle repeats itself. My sink continues to pile higher and higher with unwashed dishes, and let’s not even talk about the status of my laundry. Every day I dump it on my bed telling myself I’m going to fold it that evening, and every evening it gets pushed back into the laundry basket unfolded. Today is going to be different though, today I washed my dishes after finishing at the gym. Baby steps. Today I promise myself I will work on school or crafting after work. (With Netflix playing in the background and probably a glass of wine. Baby steps.) Today I will do better, instead just saying I will.
“You gotta have a vision, a vision for what is it is you really truly want. A vision is about what you’re here to create. A vision that really works, is one that excites you.”